Feeling Totally Inadequate!
Last weekend we had the state charismatic conference at my parish. I served on a prayer team, an experience that had me feeling at times totally inadequate and way out of my league. First there was a prayer session for those on the prayer teams.
As I looked around the meeting I was overwhelmed by the people there. They had been serving on prayer teams and in the Charismatic Renewal since the Seventies and Eighties. I on the other hand had been charismatic for about a decade. I listened to their prayers and their praying in tongues and felt they were way beyond me. I felt like an amateur in a roomful of professionals.
Then on Friday night as we prayed over people there was a woman with multiple issues. I felt so inadequate praying over her that I suggested she get prayed over again the next night. Saturday afternoon she again came to my team to be prayed over for a greater outpouring of the Holy Spirit. At one point she started sobbing and all I could think of was to keep praying in tongues.
That evening when they asked for testimonies she got up to speak. Du ring the prayer sessions she had been delivered from anger, hatred and bitterness. During her testimony she pointed to the exact spot we had prayed over her.
You see it is not about us or how qualified we think we are. It is about an awesome loving God who wishes to bless His people and delights in using those who are not qualified, those who are weak or feel inadequate, people like me or you. It is for His glory that we serve and pray. It is by His Spirit and power that we act. We may feel inadequate but our God is infinite. What an awesome God we serve.